Decisions and Week 1

Wow, it's been a long emotional week! The good news is that no matter how upset I got, I didn't turn to bad food to make me feel better. This is a HUGE step for me! I also lost 7 pounds!!!!!! For one week, that's insane. And yes, I know it isn't healthy to lose 7 pounds a week every week, but it was a good boost for me. I actually walked into Zumba class today and the instructor yelled out, "Sarra! Whatever you're doing girl, it's workin'!" Hehe. Made me blush. I didn't even work out 100% this week AND I was bloated after the saline u/s, so overall, I'm feeling great about the diet.

This week, I've decided to start adding in a few things. I want to add in some lean protein like chicken and beans, maybe some eggs. I also want to add in some dairy. I'm thinking the occasional greek yogurt, but still no cheese since it's so calorie dense. I want to add things in gradually so I don't get tempted to go crazy with calories. I think I'll also stay away from grains, except maybe some Ezekiel bread, which is made from sprouted grains. I'm excited, because I feel like I've done a lot this week to break my bad habits with food. Now, I just need to stick with it.

George and I also made a big decision as far as our TTC journey. After pretty much talking about it all week, we've come to the decision that we are going to go ahead with our plans for an October IVF cycle. We are already emotionally and financially prepared for it, so why change our plans now when everything is set and ready to go? Also, with the 60% chance of success, it's by far our best bet for having a baby. I feel good about the decision. The only thing standing in our way right now is my book writing, so I better get on it!

Our IVF protocol includes the drugs Microdose Ovidrel, Gonal F, and Follistim. No lupron or anything like that. I'll also be on 10 days of birth control at the beginning. I am looking forward to learning more about the protocol and how it will all work. I'm not looking forward to all the shots, haha, but I am looking forward to the best chance ever of seeing that BFP!

My focus over the next seven weeks is my attitude. Everything else is in place for success. I've been working out, eating right, getting good sleep, taking my metformin and prenatal vitamins, taking extra vitamin D to get my levels back up to normal. I'm putting my best foot forward. However, I've been a bit of an emotional wreck. I'm overthinking things and worrying way too much. It's time I found some positivity. I was talking to my mom on the phone yesterday and I told her I didn't want to get my hopes up. She said, Just get your hopes up, Sarra. Maybe I should. Maybe I should just let go of all these reservations and just get my hopes up and believe that IVF is going to work for us.