BFN

11DPO today. I wasn't going to test early, but then I wanted to know. I had to know, lol. I went out to the grocery store at midnight last night to buy a double-pack of FRER (first response early result) home pregnancy tests. This morning, it was the first thought on my mind when I popped out of bed. My temps were still high, so I thought there was some hope. You hear all these stories about couples who surprise conceive just before they start IVF, so I have to admit, there was hope there.

I took the test first thing this morning. BFN. Big Fat Negative. As always. Yes, I realize 11 days past ovulation is still early, but I usually only have a 12 day luteal phase, so I'm only at most 2 days before AF. I don't think it's too early for a positive to show on an early results test. I'm just not pregnant.

Technically, there's still one more cycle between now and our IVF cycle. However, I'll be at the beach during my fertile window, so I don't really consider it a ttc cycle. There might be a day or two we can see each other, it just depends on how my cycle progresses next month. If it's meant to be, it will be. My eyes are turning toward the IVF though now. I'm definitely feeling like it's going to happen and we're so close. Just one month away. I need to turn my eyes away from the disappointment of so many months of negative pregnancy tests and just be positive and hopeful that IVF will be the miracle we've been hoping for.